Post-Funeral Blues

(written after the assignment of choosing music for our funeral)


I think this assignment brought me closer to the idea of death. Listening to one of the students songs today in class made me imagine a funeral taking place. Even in doing this assignment I chose to make it more autobiographical than about death. I wanted to convey my personality more than provide effective pieces of music for people to hear when considering my death. Maybe I really haven't come to terms with death itself at all, so I focused on the life, on my life. And I found laughter, crying, creativity, and hope to be major parts of my life. And LOVE of course. So this assignment brought me back to the basics, my childhood self and my 21 year old self laughs and cries at the same time. I like that about myself. This assignment helped me think about who I am and what I value and what I try to provide for others (things like Encouragement, love, support, joy). Because when I'm down (and dead) thats the only thing I'd wish I could do--spread a message of hope and love.